Daily Recovery Blog
Wednesday Jun 23, 2021
"If nothing changes, nothing changes except your clean date." -
Gerald Z.
IT WORKS IF YOU WORK ITThe same person will use again. Nothing changes if nothing
changes. These little sayings haunted me in early recovery. One
thing for sure helped me. When I went to a meeting, I felt
better. Most of my early recovery was motivated by the amount of
pain I was feeling. I needed to be spoon fed. I was a white
knuckler for a while. Do not use no matter what was my program. I
wanted to get better. Only I was hoping that it would happen by
osmosis. It was the older members constantly asking me questions
that jump started my recovery. Do you have a home group? Have you
found a sponsor yet? Did you pray today? So to stop the all the
questions, I got a home group. Then I got the sponsor. My sponsor
gave me daily recovery lessons. It was another miracle. Against
my wishes, I got a program of recovery started. Pray, write, and
share with my sponsor who helped me make healthy decisions. It
works if I work it.
"There's no substitute for hard work." - Thomas Edison
Tuesday Jun 22, 2021
"If I wouldn't have used with you don't expect me to hang around
you clean" - Patrick Y.
HIP, SLICK, AND FATALLY COOLI came into recovery with false pride. I was hurting and needed
help, but acted better than you. It is amazing I was even allowed
to come back. I used the best drugs. I had an image that I had to
uphold. I had war stories to tell. I was still hanging on to the
old lifestyle. I wanted to be cool. Men do not cry. I did not
want to be hugged by other males. I made sure you knew to leave
me alone. I was not going to ask for help. I would not join in
the circle at the end of the meeting. I immediately headed for
the door. I heard addicts were egomaniacs with inferiority
complex. Something magical happened. I was told they needed me to
help set up the meeting next week. I fell for it. It felt good
for somebody to say I was needed. Soon after being made setup
man, I saw a tough biker guy crying about his dog that died. I
tried to hold back, but tears ran down my cheeks from feeling his
loss. The woman next to me handed me a tissue. I was busted. Hip,
slick and fatally cool had finally moved away. From me.
"The worst drugs are as bad as anybody's told you. It’s just a
dumb trip, which I can't condemn people if they get into it,
because one gets into it for ones own personal, social, emotional
reasons. It’s something to be avoided if one can help it." - John
Lennon
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