Daily Recovery Blog
Tuesday Apr 23, 2019
"Don't forget that the world record is 24 hours." - Henry S.
SIMPLICITY IS THE KEYAs I recall, I complicated the easiest things. When I stopped
using drugs, I was a scatterbrain. My feelings were thawing out.
I was very fragile. I was overly sensitive to self. On a daily
basis, fear ruled my behaviors. I was 27 years old. I felt 13.
Paranoia consumed most of my waking hours. It is amazing how a
simple cliché like "Keep It Simple" could affect one's life. I
memorized the serenity prayer. It became my mantra. Most days I
used it several times. We had a little white booklet. It
contained about nine of our pamphlets. I remember hearing it
called hip pocket recovery, don't leave home without it. I took
that to heart. I wore out plenty of white booklets sitting on
toilet seats reading the chapter "What Can I Do?" until the urges
passed. The year was 1982. We did not have cell phones. Making
contact with each other was not always easy. There was only one
meeting a day, and most of us had to carpool. Some days, meetings
were a 40 minute drive each way. Those days may sound
complicated, but they were actually very simple. We needed each
other. We needed to not use and go to meetings.
"The simplest things are often the truest." - Richard Bach
Monday Apr 22, 2019
"I had a higher power when I was using; drugs as I understood
them." - Jack B.
WILLPOWER EQUALS OUR WILLINGNESS TO USE A HIGHER POWEROne day while reading our recovery text, I saw the criteria for a
higher power. It was to be an all powerful, all loving, and all
caring power. It took a few minutes for this to sink in. This
thing called a "higher power" was a beautiful thing. I did not
realize what was about to take place in my life. Early recovery
was painful. My mind was tired. My body ached. My spirit was
weak. I heard the pain was in the resistance. I wanted to stay
clean. I decided that I was willing to do the footwork. I went
out and bought a dictionary. Meetings were my higher power. I
felt safe at meetings. A few days later a colorful rainbow
appeared in the sky. I had lived in Florida for 15 years. I had
seen hundreds of rainbows. None of them ever affected me like
this one. It was a warm feeling that made me smile to myself. I
was learning to feel. I was learning that I could see my higher
power everywhere, not just in meetings. All I had to do was be
willing to look.
"My trust in a higher power that wants me to survive and have
love in my life, is what keeps me moving forward."- Kenny Loggins
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