Daily Recovery Blog
Monday Dec 8, 2025
"What made me keep coming back was the vision of hope the
meetings gave me." - Big Robert
I AM LOST, BUT AT LEAST I SEE WHERE I AM GOINGEarly recovery can be stressful. My experience was, when I
stopped using, the wreckage of my past started showing up. Every
day was a challenge. I still had urges to use. I was scared about
my future. I had court dates coming up. The highlight of my day
was going to meetings. It was at the meetings where I was able to
get glimpses of hope. I felt like I was carrying around a big
ball of garbage. Listening to others share the miracles in their
lives helped me to feel better. The first time I listened to a
speaker share his story, was like watching a movie. He was able
to hold my attention for the whole hour. His message was amazing.
He got clean young. I still see him see a few times a year. He
has over 30 years clean. He shared about world conventions. In
1982, our fellowship did not have a recovery text yet. He shared
things about our fellowship that I never knew. I was in awe of
this new information. I had nothing to look forward to in my
personal life. It was a mess. He shared in July in West Palm
Beach the Florida region would be holding their 1st annual
convention. It was called TODAY WE LIVE. He said conventions were
celebrations of recovery. I told myself I was going to attend
that convention. This year, in a couple months, Florida will be
holding their 30th convention, FRCNA 30. In 1984, I was the
chairperson for FRCNA 3. It was called BELIEVING IN MIRACLES. It
was the message of hope from one of our predecessors that allowed
me to see where I was going.
"Where there is no vision, there is no hope." - George Washington
Carver
Sunday Dec 7, 2025
"You can't experience victory if you refuse to surrender." -
Bruce B.
NOTHING IS SO BAD THAT USING WON'T MAKE IT WORSEMy addiction progressed to me staying loaded all the time. Once I
could no longer support my habit, I would go to an outpatient
clinic that provided me legally with drugs. This would happen
every few years for a few months at a time. My last run at the
clinic was for nine months. I was getting kicked off for dirty
urines. I heard a guy share at the meeting that he related to
girl saying she was a weekend user. He said he was a weekend user
too - from one end the week to the other. That was how I used. I
knew my thinking was twisted. I went to a clinic that gave me
drugs to help me get off drugs, and was kicked off for using
drugs. Yes, this sounds confusing. I understood it. I could never
get enough. I always wanted more. I was never satisfied. My using
always made things worse. I knew the drugs would eventually wear
off. I knew the consequences would catch up with me. Before I got
clean, I would sell out at the drop of a dime. I felt I deserved
to get high. My reality is I knew using was going to make it
worse. I was just going to stay loaded until I was forced to
stop. I learned from other members to think it all the way
through. Today I am not willing to pay the price. I was taught
the truth - nothing is so bad, using won't make it worse.
"All forms of self-defeating behavior are unseen and unconscious,
which is why their existence is denied." - Vernon Howard
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