Daily Recovery Blog
Friday Jan 23, 2026
"If I wouldn't have used with you don't expect me to hang around
you clean" - Patrick Y.
HIP, SLICK, AND FATALLY COOLI came into recovery with false pride. I was hurting and needed
help, but acted better than you. It is amazing I was even allowed
to come back. I used the best drugs. I had an image that I had to
uphold. I had war stories to tell. I was still hanging on to the
old lifestyle. I wanted to be cool. Men do not cry. I did not
want to be hugged by other males. I made sure you knew to leave
me alone. I was not going to ask for help. I would not join in
the circle at the end of the meeting. I immediately headed for
the door. I heard addicts were egomaniacs with inferiority
complex. Something magical happened. I was told they needed me to
help set up the meeting next week. I fell for it. It felt good
for somebody to say I was needed. Soon after being made setup
man, I saw a tough biker guy crying about his dog that died. I
tried to hold back, but tears ran down my cheeks from feeling his
loss. The woman next to me handed me a tissue. I was busted. Hip,
slick and fatally cool had finally moved away. From me.
"The worst drugs are as bad as anybody's told you. It’s just a
dumb trip, which I can't condemn people if they get into it,
because one gets into it for ones own personal, social, emotional
reasons. It’s something to be avoided if one can help it." - John
Lennon
Thursday Jan 22, 2026
"I am not in prison. I am at a spiritual retreat in a gated
community" - Llama Boy
LIFE ON LIFE'S TERMSLife on life's terms is not another excuse for being powerless.
People, places, and things are going to do things on a daily
basis. There will be things that will happen that I have to
accept. My sponsor shared with me early on that I am not
powerless, until I start using drugs. One of the reasons I used,
was to avoid dealing with life on life's terms. I must accept
that I am an addict in order to stay clean. If I am unwilling to
accept life on life's terms, I am going to be miserable. I
grabbed on to the serenity prayer. The serenity prayer was my
first glimpse of letting go. Living life on life's terms, means
doing the best that I can, even though there are many
disagreeable events and realities that I wish were different.
"Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude towards us."
- Earl Nightingale
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